Monday, February 28, 2011

Awesome story! Thank you, Ardis

A friend from school has this amazing blog. She's studying at Cambridge people...she's brilliant. And spiritual. And awesome. Anyway, she found this other blog http://blog.cjanerun.com/2011/02/sunday-guest-post-series-j-scott.html and I love this man's explanation of how we can use the Atonement in our lives! This is a post concerning his anxiety about getting cancer...again. It makes my anxiety about other things completely minor! 

After many days of this anxiety, I finally made a heartfelt appeal on my knees. I told God that I was fairly certain of the process for making His son’s atonement work for me in the expurgation of my sins, but that I was at a total loss as to how the atonement worked in the deliverance from the pain and sorrow and grief of every day heartaches and other illnesses of the soul that come, not because of sin or rebellion, but because of ... well, just because.



“I am unaware of any process to put into play here, Father. How is it accomplished? I’ve been taught that the atonement covers this sort of thing. But how? What do I do? What do I do?”

After a bit of consideration, I said, “Here’s what I think–I hope–will work. I’m going to take all this worry–this pain–this anxiety, all this fear and terror, and roll it all up into a ball and I’m going to toss it up to you. Will that work? Is that all I need to do? Because I don’t think I can get through another day like this. I’m kinda goin’ crazy here and I need to get rid of this stuff. So, here–here it is, take it. I’m tossing it as high as I can. Please catch it. It’s yours now.”

And I did it. I rolled it all up and threw it into the air. At least I pictured myself doing that. Then I took a deep breath and went to work.

And then it was as if a gentle rain followed me everywhere I went that day. The mud and muck of fear and uncertainty dissolved under that warm and friendly downpour slowly but persistently as the day went on. And by the time I went to bed that night my heart and my mind were calm and peaceful. And have been–on the subject of cancer–ever since.

2 comments:

  1. Amy, what are the chances - I think that you are brilliant, spiritual, and awesome too! :) I was really touched by this story, and I'm glad that you shared it on your blog too! What an amazing perspective he's been able to develop.

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  2. Wow i love your words!! you are the sweetest person i know! Thanks for sharing that!!! Love you honey!

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